My language test is next month.

I'm freakin out badly. The site says assesment but i know it not to be true.
Because this man i talked to said " test"
>< damn it.

I hope i pass. I really want to go to Japan!

Keep your fingers crossed for me!

It's been a while since i've written in here....actually about anything.

My life as it stands is not so bad right now. But it does have some downers.

ON the good side, I might be going to Osaka Japan for 4 months, and I have only one more year of school left then its on to post secondary.

On the bad side, I'm just getting really really depressed.
I'm losing all my friends for no reason. I talk to them but we really don't have much in common anymore.
I've experianced not having any one before and it scares me. But really I'm to sad to even care right now.
I've also noticed a change in my sleeping patterns. I can't sleep, i dont feel rested like i usually do, all because i started to think about "death".

It scares me ALOT. Like if you die what happens then? is like when you go into that deep sleep and thats it? Game over? All these experiances gone with time, all these people GONE. Everytime i think about it i get an empty feelings in my stomach and i start to cry for hours and my eating patterns have changed. I barely feel hungry i eat maybe one good meal a day and thats it.

I know it's life and death happens and we're supposed to make the most of it, But i want to see so much and experiance so much and with today's world it's literally impossible.All i know is i'm totally scared....I don't want to die......

The drama of high school is finally getting to me.
I see it all the time and im like who cares?
Also these girls grrrr they make me mad.

They think they are all that, they think they're sexy lol, and degrade themselves by just ick..
you don't wanna know what they do.
And the guys dont get me started! They can't see the inner beauty of any girl if their life depended
on it. some can but most are blind.
I guess the standerd is you have to be a size 0, skanky, and have a asshole jock of a boyfriend.
Well in my school anyway, dunno about any of your schools.

But yeah thats my rant. Nothing important so w/e XD
lol

till next time

WEll we have a drummer now
so the call or one is now over =)

we will be organizing some more
but we should be recording some
music in the near future!
Hope you will come check the band out when
we have some material up

Ok my band Saikoro needs a drummer!
we are long distance
so any questions about that e-mail me about it.

But we need one pronto

you must have or have access to drums
live in north America
16-19 years old female or male (band is all girls at the moment)
has drive cause we wanna go big!

please e-mail me if your interested or know some one that is!!

we are desperate

Mizuki

Man i ahte having no money T___T
oh well haha

But we have changed our name from Kinko to
*drum roll*
Saikoro!

yay!
everythings going smoothly
we should be having music some time this fall
then all of you can cheer and say yes great music!

haha

but any way

Ja!

Kinko is now offcially made but we still need one more guitar, a bassist, and a drummer.
I play guitar and Arielstar is the vocalist.
Can't wait to get the auditions started!
im going to put up an add in our J-rock community
and people will have to go through a interview
and then we'll decide if their fit or not.

Also we've decided to make it a Japanese Visual Kei
Band sooooo is u like wearing crazy stuff and making crazy hair does
you should check it out.

e-mail me at darkmouzy@hotmail.com

with any questions or to give ur name so I can
send u a application

OMG hate hate hate this semister!!!
I have an "ex" model and a planning teacher and she sucks and she's dumb cause my sister had her for science and they only learned 60% og the course material and the all failed the gov. exam.
I have a boring english teacher, but since he's into hockey thats ok
i have a crazy, pig disecting, blowing things up science teacher (fun fun)
the only teacher i actually like is my guitar teacher he's awesome
we kinda learned a song by the doors but i forget which one >.<;


but yep, i wanna hear how awesome or sucky your semister is guys so please elaborate for me!!!

thanks

ja!

man im so busy and i feel so bad i can't keep up my community cause of it!
i might just make a permanent layout and like change it every month or so.....
and we're doing this project at school jeeze piss me off nothings working for me and im getting pissed off casue we've tried everything!

it was an awesome elaborate web site and now its shit.... im so sad T.T

and to make it worse i have to go to work after school which ends in like........now

bye bye

I never really relised how busy i was till yesterday.....i barely have time to go on now and update things such as my journal and my own community its heart breaking...i also can't really put my playlist on because i like....im only on 2 times a week. man oh man i wish everything would stop and then i could supply my play list to all!
bwhahahahahahhaha

bai bai

Man do i hate myself sometimes (u don't have to read i just need to
write it down!)

I really like this guy at school but
A)1 year older than me

no biggy

B)everybody knows him

Im invisible

i've been trying to just say hi, why? I haven't even spoke to him before.
but its hard. so yeah if you read this thank you for listening to my soap opra

~Dark~

i uploaded this fan clip
so here it is in my journal

h__p://s32.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0DQOWEMN0XATF04S97ZD4QN72Z


also there is only two days left so hurry!

EDIT: ok never mind it didnt work T.T


oh well

yeah how can i not be happy with such a huk like that please some one explain ^.~

Who would you marry? (Dir en Grey) by Toshiya
Name
Age
Gender	femalemale
Who?	Kyo
When?	October 5, 2010
How many kids?	6
Are you happy?	no
Quiz created with MemeGen!

I found some quiz's and her they are:
Quiz:1

Jrock Family by esneka
Name
Favourite Colour
Your Mother is	Aya (Psyco le Cemu)
Your Father is	Gackt
Your Brother is	Jun (Pierrot)
Your Boyfriend is	Aiji (Pierrot)
Your Best friend Is	Tadashi (Plastic Tree)
Your Pet is	Hyde (Larc en Ciel)
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Quiz:2
this freaked me out o.O

which dir en grey member killed you by Minkypinky
LJ User Name
Date of Death	August 2, 2027
Who Killed You	Kyo
How He Killed you	Shot you 10 times in the head
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Quiz:3
this was weird also but funny

Which DEG Member do you sleep with? by ikky
username is
favorite color is
you sleep with	Toshiya
your position is	standing up
the action occurs in	their studio
afterwards he	wants more
Quiz created with MemeGen!

ok and one last one!

this was the one i was pleased with ^^

Which DEG member will you meet? by unlife
Name
Favorite DEG song
Member met	Kyo
You received	One of his piercings
He received	Nothing
Will he remember you?	He calls you every night!
Quiz created with MemeGen!

thats it try them out and put them in your journal!

heres somthing i cooked up nothing spectacular and the white strip at the bottom isnt supposed to be there but oh well

long live DIRU!!!!

i did this quiz (the one grrrrrrmanson posted)

and these are my results

Miyavi date by miyavilover
when will you meet him?	April 18, 2010
where do you meet?	in a blizzard
then what?	he runs after a kitty
you then...	drool... *__*
at the end of the night...	you buy a kitty
how much does he want to see you again?: 86%
your name?
your age?
favorite color?
have you heard of miyavi?	YESSSS!!!I LOOOOOOVE HIM!who?uhmm....miy..gi?i know miyyyaaavviii! 3MIYAVI+ME=LOVE!yup...i've heard of him a few times
Quiz created with MemeGen!

im helping grrrrrrmanson on this petition on them closing the hide museum in japan.

please help her and all the fans around the world by signing this!!!

http://www.petitiononline.com/gt347981/petition.html




hide will always live on!

Hello im just felt like displaying my friends color bar which i might add

is beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! go to grrrrrmansons journal for full details

hope you dont mind grrrrmanson!


Miyavi's tongue is love ^.~

click ^ to go to her journal

Im going to take down my play list for a few days because i want it to be organized
and i have so much new stuff im putting on (its alot believe me)

i will put it back up and it will be more readable

thank you
and sorry for the inconvience

dark mouzy